Dialogue of Doubt
As a new teacher, I have this tendency to doubt myself. I am constantly wondering if I am doing enough, doing too much, or just doing stuff that doesn't matter. That third thought is the scariest; the thought that what I'm doing just doesn't matter.
We all want to be significant. We all want to matter. It's an innate human need. That need gets satisfied when we know that what we are doing while we have time on this earth matters. If you ever want to doubt yourself - teach. If you ever want to doubt your capabilities - work with children. But doubt is incongruent to my teaching because I need to impart wisdom, and build up the character of the next generation of leaders. So yes, I take myself and my work very seriously, because I have been called to teach.
Teaching isn't something you fall into. It requires passionate people. And passionate people, like me, sometimes we doubt ourselves, because we so badly don't want to mess up a life. As I grow as a teacher, I am doing my best to cast my doubt aside. The doubt is complete obscured in the waxing love of the students I have the sheer joy of meeting each day in the classroom. In those moments - those precious moments of teaching, I am fully alive, I am fully known, and all fears, failures, and doubts are cast aside in the presence of the gifts that are my students.
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Ms. St. Jean
Native New Yorker teaching and living the middle school life, using this site to keep it 100. My students are the embodiment of joy.